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Post by SUPERDUDE! on Nov 16, 2012 1:52:29 GMT -8
SUPERDUDE!twenty-one | sexy male | player | MIRACLES! | harana hitome The CharacterEvery immature kid yearned to be older. Impatience, insecurity, naivety to become better, older, wiser. Because you think you already know; because that's how you've been spoiled. But it was all just a scheme to make you fall in love so it could be taken out of your grasps that, in dire need, you chase after it. It wobbles above your head several feet away while you run after it like a mule being baited by a fresh carrot.
Ignorance wasn't your sin. Innocence was your crime; you lost it and now you're damned.
You still had a home to return to. Your possessions were not lost. Lone child, star of his family, Father chose you and your mother over his last wife and several children. Lone child, you were what he turned to and your life has always shone. But you came back with your single loss and found Christmas no longer visited you everyday. Sympathies and pities, hugs and kisses, money and affection pulled you no safer from the battle you realize you have to fight on your own.
It was unfair, unforgiving, unjust. Never once did you look to contemplate whether the side who lost in each victory you gloated felt that way. You never knew, you never thought of it. You were innocent and now you're damned without it.
But how could they understand? How could they know? They weren't you, you weren't they. It's not like you were perfect - you knew that much. You had your share of pain, just like anyone! You were dumb, I'm sorry. You did not do that well when it came to thinking. But people saw that was just a flaw to balance your other greatness. You've always played the role, in and out of the stage, and never made a single mistake. That's how they've always looked at you...and then you slipped and woke everyone up, as if your performances and glamor have been mere hypnotism.
Everyone was wrong. The thought became your single principle but the more you tried to believe, the more your confidence trickled. You were a star that lost its light and you found yourself alone in the shadows, forgotten.
You can't lose faith in yourself. You're all who's left for you.
You play the role again, make sure everyone would see it again. Flamboyant, cheery, full of energy; doer of good, prince of all ladies, bane of all the bad guys. People would see you once more and look at you in the same eyes back then. All of them will see, one day!
The opportunity is here. A new world, a new face. No one would judge and you will make no more mistake.
[SUPERDUDE!], ready to show the world!
(I lied. You are still innocent but woefully ignorant. Someday - hopefully you'll see - that you have a bigger light ahead of you, instead of starring down at the dead light bulb that you thought your life is all about. Keep wishing, no matter how foolish. It's where all dreams begin.) The RPername pink nachtmare tanz face claim star driver, galactic bishounen
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